My hamsters have been fighting for quite some time now....maybe a month or so? Or even before June, i can't really remember. But today i got the signal that it really was time to separate them.

For awhile i thought, well let them have their little bitch fights, no one was getting harmed anyway, and it was kinda fun seeing them play block catching in a cage. Yeah but that was till i saw the wound behind Ah Hei's ear.

Oh mannn it hit me hard, and it hurt me to see my hamster get hurt. I knew Ah Bai had been bullying Ah Hei but i thought it was just a harmless show of domination and i was sort of hoping the two would remember their sweet memories as babies and sort of....i dont know, reconcile their differences? I even bought a bigger cage that was two storeys so they wouldn't really fight over space.

Yeah but that didn't work out and i'm sorry Ah Hei if ive been neglecting you, Ah Bai too, but still, yeah the wound looked like it had been attacked at repeatedly, so I think Ah Bai must have been biting Ah Hei behind the ear for quite some time now....there's quite a large patch of hair missing and just raw flesh exposed.

So i have finally decided to separate them, it's for the best i guess. I suppose hamsters can live in solitude and not go insane....as long as they have enough things to do and stuff to play with they should be fine....yeah but I think the bullying and torturing must have done some psychological damage to Ah Hei. [not to mention the bar biting and swallowing of poisonous paint]

She's become very timid and quiet, not adventurous, sort of like a recluse. She just stays on the second floor and is very cautious and doesn't venture far from her safe haven[a small plastic house]. I guess cuz she thinks Ah Bai might be lurking downstairs waiting to get a bite of her. For such cute, cuddley creatures they have an extremely vicious side...sigh. I guess for Ah Hei's condition to get better I have to wait, these things take time la i guess.

But i read that hamsters are very forgetful and spending too much time away from each other will cause them to forget each other's scent. I guess if i ever get them to meet again, they'll be strangers. How sad, they'll forget that they even grew up together.

Sometimes i look at all the animals on our earth, magnificent and powerful and beautiful as they might be, i'm thankful that i am a human. I have the intellectual capacity to think, make judgements and form opinions, voice those opinions, love and feel and finally, i have the capacity to have memories of all my experiences.

Amygdala; an almond shaped part of your brain that records the emotions of your memories. Hamsters don't have that, that's why they behave that way. In fact hamsters probablly don't have half the stuff that's packed into the human brain.

The human brain is so wonderful don't you think? There's so much yet unknown about this magnificent organ, and yet everyday we take it for granted. In fact without realising, we often take life for granted too. When something is there everyday, you conceive the notion that it's probally going to be there the next day too, and the next till you think it's going continue to be there for a very long time and we take it as a given.

I wonder how things will work out for those two, if Ah Hei becomes bolder and goes downstairs. If Ah Bai becomes any less domineering after having a space of her own...

Okay lame i know, i just couldn't help myself.

I'm really happy i got to meet up with A2 today... been missing them alot lately... Not everyone came, just the usuals Zarifah, Sarah, Gillian, Tong Pin, Alph and me. Usually kx would be here too, but he had to book in so i guess he was spending time with his family. Tp only books in tmr cuz of H1N1, one of the coast guards caught it and so they quarantined his entire squad. Of course not everyone's been quarantined if not there'd be no one guarding Singapore's coast.

Anyway, we went for dinner, i came pretty late, but was in time for dinner with them, YAY:) Haha, im smiling even as im typing this. Ahhh, i guess i really do miss them. SOSOSO glad i met up with B.O.S today...usually one of them would be missing. HAHA, we need to meet up with Lisa too more before she goes.

Sigh isn't amazing how fast life can pass you by, people moving on, going places, doing different things, we can't be together anymore but when we do get together it's as though we never left at all.

I felt this with the Jap trip people too, though to a smaller degree. Like when we had a gathering at ms yeo's house, it was like we were all still back in japan and nothing had changed. I know i may sound delusional but that's what it felt like. I'm not trying to escape the present, im actually enjoying every moment of it:) AND im estatic for the future, like i can't wait to go to uni and do things that i love, and challenge my boundaried even further. There's just one SMALL(not really) giant(small giant is an oxymoron by the way) that i have to get thru before i can live my dreams...well almost.

Yeah well im going back to school tomorrow to plant fruits...i mean be fruitful:) HAHAHAHA, not funny meh? Ya and hope that it all works out la. I know I myself have to be consciously hardworking and continue with this attitude. I hope that when i do....if i do sort of burn out, God will send me another motivator or igniter that will spark me off again. Of course seeing and reminding myself of photography does the trick. When i look at professional photographers i really wish i was one of them.

For now....all i can do is ASPIRE. Which reminds me i need to log on and download lecture seating arrangements...HAHA not funny again la jacq, pun intended also not funny. {Right ignore me talking and laughing to myself}

*A2 cheers me up*

Hey guys okay I'll say one thing in all fairness of tonight's gala dinner, the people, the atmosphere, heck even the music and entertainment was good. Except dinner. (Well i did say one thing in fairness, more than one thing in fact.)

The food was edible...in fact it barely hit even that mark, BUT i shall say no more. With the TWO exceptions of the entire dinner...one entrée (sirloin steak) and one dessert (cheesecake with strawberry sauce) the rest was rubbish. (OH not forgetting the wonderful mint chocs at the end that I concluded was actually the highlight of the entire dinner.)

The dancers were damn good as always, Rystine's friend, sheryln was dancing right in front of my table, so of course being a good friend i snapped LOTS of photos of her. I think rystine's gonna love me...HAHA. Anyway, at least i had Elisha, John, Clara and Ann Na for the night to be bearable, even Omar who was sitting next to Clara was far more interesting and funny than the programme.

But i can't really complain much, i mean it clearly was more a night for the alumni to meet each other and catch up after 20 odd years, than it was for current students, especially the pioneer batch. Imagine how nostalgic meeting up after 20 years must be for them! Haha, it's really none of my business but i'm glad that those people got to meet up and chat with their friends. Makes me wonder how my classmates will look like in 20years, more importantly, WHO they'll be. Where they'll be in life...married maybe? With kids even?

Also im really really proud of my 07 class. They did really well, especially the you know who(s). Haha wont mention their names, they've been repeated so many times, it's starting to sound old. But seriously i feel proud of them. And same time next year, i hope they can be proud of me too:)

I think God puts certain events at the right time of our lives to remind us of things we have forgotton. I won't say what or where or when, just in case i jinx it....like everything else that i seem to jinx just by saying it out loud, or declaring it, or trying to convince myself or WHATEVER it is. I just hope it comes true.

When that time comes, i hope i can make you proud of me:)

Also, i was quite sad actually tonight that the dinner ended late and i didn't get to see A2, but i think God knew and tp suggested we meet up tmr! Whoo, usually sunday's family day but tmr im gonna make an exception since i didn't see them today....okay yesterday since it's 12.20am already...so i guess technically its yesterday.

Going to head to bed now, gotta wake up early tomorrow for church and praise the Lord for everything He's done for me....which i haven't really been doing lately. {guilty}