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    Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 1:08 PM
    I just wanna be happy.

    Happy - Leona Lewis

    Someone once told me that you have to choose

    What you win or lose
    You can’t have everything

    Don’t you take chances
    You might feel the pain
    Don’t you love in vain
    ’cause love won’t set you free

    I can’t stand by the side
    And watch this life pass me by
    So unhappy
    But safe as could be

    So what if it hurts me
    So what it I break down
    So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
    My feet run out of ground
    I gotta find my place
    I wanna hear my sound
    Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
    I'm just tryin' to be happy
    I just wanna be happy, yeah

    Holding on tightly
    Just can’t let it go
    Just trying to play my role
    Slowly disappear

    But all these days
    They feel like they’re the same
    Just different faces
    Different place
    Get me out of here

    I can’t stand by the side
    Ooh, no
    And watch this life pass me by
    Pass me by

    So what if it hurts me
    So what if I break down
    So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
    My feet run out of ground
    I gotta find my place
    I wanna hear my sound
    Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
    Cuz I’m just trying to be happy

    Oh, happy, Oh
    So any turns that I can't see
    I'll count a stranger on this road, but don't say victim
    Don’t say anything

    So what if it hurts me
    So what if I break down
    So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
    My feet run out of ground
    I gotta find my place
    I wanna hear my sound
    Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
    I just wanna be happy

    Happy

    I just wanna be, Oh
    I just wanna be

    Happy.




    Wednesday, October 07, 2009, 12:47 AM
    This Love - Lincoln Brewster

    One love to overshadow every other love (other love)

    One love to break the darkness

    One love to overcome (overcome)



    Oh Lord

    Your love it burns as fire

    Brighter than the flame



    As surely as the air I breathe

    As surely as Your Word's alive in me

    I'm held oh grace remind me

    As surely as the stars above me

    Life eternal waiting for me

    And I owe it to this love



    One love beyond the heavens and deeper than the sea (oh oh)

    One love will be forever greater than my need (oh yeah)




    Saturday, October 03, 2009, 7:07 PM
    There's nothing on my mind

    I seriously have nothing to blog about. Spent the day studying at school, came home, took a shower, ate and here i am.

    There's seriously nothing on my mind except my studies right now. And of course God. I mean...most of the time im stoning or just blanking out.
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    Quite scary eh...It's like my thoughts are disappearing into nothingness.

    Nothing
    But
    A
    Blank
    Piece
    Of
    Paper
















    Here you go.

    Yup, that pretty much sums up my mental state at this point in time.




    Sunday, September 27, 2009, 11:26 AM
    My God is an awesome God.

    "Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6

    Recently i have been taking comfort in this verse, meditating upon it whenever i am lost, confused or scared. And i have been noticing funny things happening ever since.

    Yesterday in the early morning i went down to the ICA building to make my i/c, ok so not so early it was 8.15 when i arrived. BUT STILL early for a saturday morning. Anyway i managed to sail right through, there was no queue nothing! Initially i was worried because magenta told me usually there would be people queuing  up from 7am! Can you believe it! And they only start issuing queue tickets at 8am. I seriously thought i was going to have to be at that building for hours. So on the mrt while i was still travelling there, i must have repeated the verse at least 5 times. And you know what? MY PATH WAS STRAIGHT. I walked right in, took a queue number...NO WAITING, when i walked into the waiting area, MY NUMBER WAS NEXT. It was all so simple and easy. I knew God was working in my life.

    The next funny and curious thing that happened was after that i went to meet Tong pin and alph, cuz tp lives very near the ica and alph was gg study wit me. But they couldn't come down yet, and i had to wait for them. I waited damn long, like 1h plus, BUT it was alright cuz i had my notes and stuff to study. I was waiting at Beach road foodcourt. Then i had to use the toilet, and i was wondering in my head...does this place have a toilet? Is there a toilet anywhere near? What if there wasn't one? Oh man, i was going to have a difficult time holding it. Then i meditated the verse again, i was thinking God please somehow sort this out for me. Then i couldn't take it anymore and asked the drink stall uncle if there were any toilets in the vicinity. YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAID? "Yeah, just straight down here." And he pointed in the opposite direction i was sitting. All i had to so was walk straight down. OMG. Then it dawned on me that God was indeed working in front of my eyes. Im nt a very good interpreter so subtle messages sometimes get lost on me. But giving me obvious blatant signals so i can understand is what God did. I just found it amazing.

    Also, yesterday at the F1 race, initially i was not happy at all. Because i wanted to take photos, BUT i had a marina bay grandstand ticket. It was nice at first, i mean the view from the marina bay grandstand was breathtaking, BUT i couldn't capture anything with my camera from that distance.

    So during the 3rd practice run i was really unhappy. At first, i was at turn 16 before going to the grandstand, but there already so many photographers there, and this one guy in front of me kept knocking his elbow into my camera. Another guy behind me kept sticking his lens into the space above my head, rendering me practically unable to raise my head to get a better view. Plus the barricade on this particular part of the track was a little higher, so i couldn't see the cars very well.I was so peeved i went back to the grandstand and sat there while watching cars zoom past. I was boring to just sit there and watch cars pass you by...i was not close enough, i wanted to get as near to the action as i could.

    And again, i called upon God. The funny thing about meditating is that the more you repeat the words...the more they start to make sense...and in different ways too. I realised that trusting the Lord with all my heart meant that even in the most dire situations. Like when all the photographers were pushing and jostling at turn 16 and how it made me really uncomfortable and irritated because i couldn't even get a good view of the road, how was i supposed to get a good shot of the car? Anyway, i realised that you have to trust God and not how you see things. We are supposed to trust God's higher understanding and purpose. So, sometimes the way you see things is not how God intended it. Sometimes its hard not to be angry and upset at things around you. But if you trust God whole-heartedly he will see things through for you. I also realised that acknowledging him in all your ways means that every you do, give glory back to God. At least that's how i interpreted it. So im stating here that this photoshoot at the F1 is to glorify God.

    Sometimes it also just means that you remember how you got the opportunity, or to just thank him for the good and the bad that have happened. Even though u don't know why some things have happened, but trusting God is key and acknowledging his ways are higher.

    AND SO, i decided after sitting on the grandstand for 45 min, watching each car pass me by and thinking to myself; each car that passed me by was an untaken photo, an empty frame that i lost. And it depressed me even more. To think that i could have taken those photos! It sorta made me mad. [at this point you probably think im mad and have lost my mind, and you're probably right. Sometimes photography makes my a little crazy cus i love it so much.]

    So i decided that during the 2 hour break from 8-10pm i was going to get a spot to claim for my own. I will stake my territory and guard it! So i went down the grandstand and saw an opening, there was no one standing between the 2 staircases of the grandstand and earlier i had seen people standing there. So i went to claim my spot. The yellow bar barricade was a little high but i could manage easily. So i started waiting there form 8pm. When i thought all was done and that God had indeed made my path straight here, like all i had to do was walk down the grandstand and i saw my spot, BUT NO, at 9.05pm some stupid security came and chased us away from the barricade claiming that we were not allowed to stand there because we were obstructing the way.

    I freaked out. With 55 min left till the qualifiers started where was i going to find another sweet spot?! I prayed the verse again. And you know what walked around and around to find another spot, this time my path was not so straight, but eventually, eventually i remembered last year when i came the barricades were lower outside marina square that area. AND when i arrived, i realised the road was waaay closer to where i was standing. The cars were only slightly over a metre away from me! IT WAS THE MOST AWESOME spot. Of course a turn would be ideal because that's where cars slow down. But i was used to quick follow throughs with my camera so i was comfortable in breaking my back everytime a car flew down the straight at high speed. HAHA, it was tiring after awhile and my feet hurt, i'd been standing for 2hours now, and my back hurt cuz i'd been following the cars intensely with my camera. BUT I WAS ENJOYING MYSELF IMMENSELY! I was loving every moment, i didn't allow myself to miss a single car, i tried to take a shot everytime a car came speeding down.

    I was so engrossed that i actually didn't notice the pain till like there was a break between qualifiers and i was reviewing pics that i realised parts of my body was aching.

    But i really just want to thank God for seeing me through yesterday. My biggest fear yesterday was that i was right there at that event, but i would not be able to get a single picture the way i wanted. And that would really frustrate me, like how i was frustrated before. God changed all that, and he made my paths straight.

    When God makes your path straight, suddenly everything seems smooth sailing; and that's how awesome he is, suddenly everything will open up in front of you and everything will make sense.

    Go check out jarzelophotography for the F1 photos:)




    Friday, September 25, 2009, 10:33 PM
    New blog!

    Haha just for fun, i've created another photoblog JUST FOR photography. I don't know if im gonna continue using photoblog.com, might probably, just stayed tuned la!

    Well, as you know i have a penchant for creating new things just because i feel like it. Actually i love creating new stuff, to relieve boredom...Well here's the link: jarzeloPhotography i'll post more frequently when i have time la.

    I'll also be placing a link at the bottom so if anyone's interested pls click! Thanks, and comment too if you're interested in pictures, photography and the like.

    I've nothing much to update just that...lately i've been noticing God more. Like even amidst the humdrum of school life, i'm beginning to notice God's glory reflected. Like this morning and evening i noticed the sun. I realised it's glorious rays that spread across the whole earth and thought to myself...how lucky am i to know the Great God that made this possible. He's so wonderful. Another time i noticed God's wonder was when i went to watch the imperial ice stars perform awhile back. I realised God's creation is so wonderful, beautiful and touching.

    Today i realised another beautiful creation that i've realised before, but even more so today; and that is music. I mean i thought i knew what beautiful, raw, touching and romantic music was...I realised today that Schubert's music epitomised all of that. What happened was i was bored and started playing the first book i could find, turns out it was my grade 2 piano book from EONS ago. I played Schubert's Serenade and realised it was a very beautiful and touching piece of music. I started searching for the rest of his music and even wiki-ed him. Franz Peter Schubert, an Austrian composer.

    The rest of his music is equally soulful, it gets a bit darker as he gets sicker and faces death. He died at the age of 31. Well, i only really started to appreciate classical music this year, i realised it helps me relax. Magneta looked at me like i was siao when i told her. Viviena also just stared blankly at me like i was all screwed up in my 'brian' AKA brain. Im just making fun of her cuz she once, actually twice IN THE SAME MESSAGE spelt brain as brian. Way to go viv;) i laughed till i cried when i saw it.

    Anyway...yeah, if you're interested after reading this go to my blog for the music, or you know just go to youtube or wherever you guys normally go and search his music. It's really good. I recommend 'Impromptu in B flat' It's so whimsical and magical in the beginning and builds up nicely. Love it:)

    Oh by the way did i mention, he died of syphilis complications. Or it could have been mercury poisoning...in those days mercury was used to treat syphilis. Oh well...but his music is SERIOUSLY beautiful, simply beautiful:)